You know what term I hate the most?
"Welcome to the 'New Normal'."
I've been stuck inside with a baby and no guidance.
And we navigate our World through Zoom.
How is this my new normal?
How is this normal at all?
I live my life through Zoom.
Hermiting the year away.
What even is normal anymore?
Drinking, I guess, spending money, that's okay.
But God forbid a new mother try to socialise with other parents.
Or allow her child a chance for social, emotional, or physical development.
But I can go out as long as I spend money, right?
But who do I pay when I just need to see a face?
Can a newborn suffer post-natal depression?
Or does that kick in when they see that there are more people in this world than their adoring parents?
I just need a hug, I don't want to pay for it.
I'm all sanitised out.
And right now,
My therapist is my best friend.
And I adore my son, really, I do.
But I'm a Black woman who really needs some vitamin D,
Instead of the layer of alcohol the government tells me
is for my own protection.
F*ck my protection,
I am fine.
I'm far too afraid
To go outside.